on growing up

Growth is a slow process. It definitely takes time, patience and consistency, and we only ever seem to notice it, when we look back. Much like running a marathon for God (see Philippians 3:14), it always seems impossible to reach the end goal. But our God has promised good to us and he will deliver. One step at a time, he says, I will be with you until the very end.

I always struggle with discipline to consistently spend time in the word. I know that that's the best way for me to learn, for God to expose himself to me. Sometimes, I become too dependent on my own insights, on my own steadiness and calm and on my own character. I can only bring myself so far; I need God above all things. What does it mean to lose myself to him?

Battles we fight each day, they are so small when we look back at them and realize how we often make mountains out of mole hills. Worries and anxieties fade in the steadfast grace and love of God.

What do you hold on to? What makes who you are and what defines you everyday? Why do you do the things you do and where does your self worth come from? Where does your assurance of peace, grace, love and of eternity lie? Me, I will try to cling to nothing but God and slowly but surely, he will raise me up. He is my vine, my grower and my source.