on complacency

the days i struggle, people assure me i am in the right place because im struggling and that my heart is in the right place with God. this fact, combined with my knowledge that we could never attain full perfection, is a dangerous mix

its a little similar to treading water. no matter how hard we tread, we will never be able to, by our own strength, to keep our entire body above water. but it is the water treading that keeps us afloat. the moment the desire stops, then we'll be submerged.

today, God revealed to me how complacent i have become. how ive came to a good place and felt settled and content; i was told that i was treading nicely and i was content with that and i stopped. but today, im confessing that it is never enough and comfortable is not good. my comfort and assurance comes in my never ending strive to follow Christ, to seek more of his will.

let me encourage you - wherever you are at, don't stop wanting more of God. its our battles and constant struggle that show the Spirit working in us. and it will be, some days, weary and tiring, but know that God is proud of you and gives you rest when you depend on him for strength and rest. and it will be slow. but it will be steady. growth is only ever realized in retrospect

with Christ, i could never have enough of him; less of me and more of You

every day.